The time is now! It is time to wake up and to look at the life I have been creating for the past 31 years. How does this sit in my body- what are the sensations? There is urgency- tomorrow may be too late, but is today too soon?
Last evening my body was tired and I found my mind happily taking charge and the conversation went- what are you doing Naomi, who do you think you are, people are beginning to ask where the 'old' Naomi went, what is your life going to look like without the stories and the drama you use to conjure up?
Today my body is rested and my mind has not been invited to play and the conversation is much different- one breath at a time, allowing life to unfold and listening to my body I have the sense I don't need to know what my life is going to 'look' like. As long as I show up in my life as the vibration of who I am life will meet me where I am instead of me trying to meet it in some place that my mind has created as a place that 'looks' good .
Trying to look productive while life is unfolding has been a means in which to compare and sometimes torture myself into believing I am worth it. Not only am I worth it but I am no longer willing to be anything but the vibration I am to make someone else feel comfortable. Big shoes- but I have Big feet!!
The softness, the strength, the voice, the silence, all these the Essence of who I am and it is all here- all of it my choosing- freeing choice moment by moment.
How can I commit to someone or something if the commitment to myself, to be mySelf, does not exist? The commitment to be mySelf in this moment and to embrace moving on when it calls.
The leader I was seeking has been here all along I just needed to shine my light on it.
The wings I was looking for have emerged and they are more beautiful then anything I could have imagined. The cliff I am standing at the edge of does not look so daunting knowing the wings I had at birth have been growing with me all along but I chose to tuck them safely away so I didn't feel 'different'. What I didn't realise was I was meant to FLY! Walking along the ground feels limiting- who knew?
Now that I see mySelf I see you and it feels wonderful!
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Hi Naomi,
When I read your words, I am filled with such a sense of the joy that comes with being fully alive! There is no substitute for authentic presence; no process or substance, no drug, that can fill up the immense space that is left when we leave ourselves.
Thank you for these words. It is so compelling to know that I am in such good company!
aloha and a hug,
Louise
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