Embracing the Genius

Ahhhh....I feel as though I am in the stillpoint of my life today. It is a rainy morning and I am cuddled up with my tea and a blanket. I am pausing this week. I am engaging myself and creating the space to allow my body and intellect to catch up to the acceleration in who I have become.
I just
I got together with an AMAZING group of women and spent a FABULOUS weekend engaged in conversation, laughter and tears. I haven't seen most of the women in over a year and yet I was able to share who I Am in this moment with each of them. It really felt as though space and time collapsed and the Essence that each one of us carries was able to shine through in the moment without the stories from the past filling the space. It was a beautiful experience.
I have a lot of information in my awareness today. If I were to remove every person from my world and sit in the sensations that were triggered in my body over the weekend I have a feeling I will know myself better by the end of this blog.

If nobody exists within me and if I am not the fixer of others and their lives, who do I need to be 'strong' for and why do I feel as though I don't have the strength to go through experiences? What does strength mean to me? Do I need strength to protect the illusion that I am safe in my world?
If I Am the one in my world and I get to show up every moment of my life, I need nothing more then to know then I am safe to inhale my potential of discovering the more that I Am, make a choice honoring the discovery, exhaling and letting the past experiences move to create space for the new evolution. In this process the step towards my Authentic journey has begun. Each breath becomes the step. Nothing to be strong for, nothing to protect. Surrendering my intellect to my body, relaxing into the sensations without putting labels on them. They are what they are. I will be less likely to honor myself if I put labels (guilt, hurt, pain, anxiety etc) on what information needs to move in my body in order to create the new thoughts that come with insights when info (emotions and sensations) moves in my body.
If I create my world then I am the only one in my world. If I am the only one in my world I need nothing other then what lives inside of me in this moment. I will not create this moment to be anything other then what 'I' need to move THROUGH (not around) to get closer to the core of who I Am. I am realizing I knew all this at the different layers that have already peeled away but I am experiencing myself VERY differently the last few days so I know have a new understanding of what I already knew.
As I am able to see myself differently I am seeing others in my life differently.
I read something this morning that allowed me to see why honoring myself in the moment is SO important to me now...

"When I forsake my genius and speak to you as though I were another, I also speak to you as someone you are not and somewhere you are not. I address you as audience, and do not expect you to respond as the genius you are." - Finite and Infinite Games

I am genius and you are genius. If we can stay present to that in conversation we will both discover the more that we are in each others presence. I have lived both the genius and 'not that' and my life has accelerated exponentially since embracing myself as genius!I look forward to discovering the more that I Am now in each breath.