Honoring MySelf and knowing I AM ENOUGH

In this moment I am aware how much IS and how much WANTS to be in flow in my life!
I had an experience this morning that created a lot of chaos in my body. I found myself bumping up against another person who I hold to be a friend in my life.
I allowed myself to ask the question- what am I bumping up against in my own life? Since it is never about the other person I allowed the wave to move inside MY body. If I had stayed in the intellect and analyzed it I would have continued to make it an experience outside of me. The wave of old information my body held would have become locked down because I wouldn't have been able to OWN it as my own.
When I reflected on and allowed myself to consider what the mornings experience was for ME I realized there was another culturally conditioned aspect of myself that was ready to move. The wave of information that moved brought the insight-I am no longer willing to create experiences to have others see that I AM ENOUGH in order to give myself permission to see it in myself. I Am IT! There will be many times in my life that I bump up against myself in the presence of another but I need to know it is simply an invitation for me to become MORE.
I had lived most of my life wanting to fit in and wanting to be loved. I have created many experiences in which people could see me as lovable, friendly and nurturing. I am still all of these things but I no longer need to be SEEN as these things. Hence the experience I created this morning. The beauty in all of it was in shaking my foundation I came to see that over the past year I have allowed my old (culturally conditioned) foundation to become replaced with more of an Authentic one- much more solid and stable. Does it mean I don't still have experiences that shake me to my core?-No, but when they do I know I will be able to stabilize and continue to move forward instead of stopping and feeling like a deer caught in the headlights, paralysed with fear. I am no longer willing to compromise myself for someones comfort and when I do this I know I am no longer teaching this to my children.
When I choose someones comfort I am not willing to engage the very thing in my body that I consider uncomfortable to stand in. Today I was willing to step into and relax into the discomfort in my own body. I didn't die doing it. I didn't fall into a depression.I don't love myself any less. In fact, I love myself more and I feel as though another piece of my world has been revealed- knowing I can go into the dark corners of my soul and turn the light on to see I am the only one there who is going to choose to change MY world. I AM ENOUGH
I Am enough in MY world and I trust others who want to see this in their lives will engage this in themselves because what was this morning dark and uncomfortable for me, is now a new way for me to consider my world! As I broaden my perspective I create more space to see it differently.