Sunday, April 26, 2009

The Journey lies Within

Beyond the stillness of my home tonight, I know, women are desperately searching as I had been searching months ago.
My search was for something I knew for some time to be missing in my life- Connection to Self.
I am happy, no, overjoyed to declare the search has finally ended. I know as I sit here tonight, within my body, the journey to find what I thought had been missing has been here all along and the journey to get here has simply been one of letting go and engaging the force that flows through my body-my unique signal in the world.
I am ready to Emerge and speak only to the Godforce that we ALL are. I am ready to engage the signal that I know each of us carries. I am ready to risk offending others to stay true to myself. I am ready to see the expression you are in me, allowing this to reveal more to me about mySelf. I Am ready to do this and be unapologetic because I know the power within the journey and I Am ready to go into the dark places because I have been there and I Am not afraid anymore!

Along this journey I have stopped and started. I have experienced such incredible fear it allowed me to go back into my intellect and react from default. I have had periods of forgetting who I Am. I have resisted change. I have questioned my worthiness, value and strength. I have experienced confusion and chaos. I have been willing to allow others with the spark in there eye to stay asleep for the fear of stirring up in them what I didn't think I could face stirring up in me. I have tried to hold on to others when it was clear they were not willing to do what it takes to reclaim their life.
In the face of all this I sit here tonight alive and knowing the pure and utter genius in it ALL. These moments have all been part of my journey back home- to Self! Each unfolding moment as I relaxed into it was allowing a stronger connection to Self and an opportunity to be more alive and awake to my own life then EVER before.

Tonight as I sit here I am aware that I am no longer able to fear the unknown. The map I hold in front of me is blank and it is waiting for me to take my first, second, third step etc. in order for it to be one of true discovery- not from my past but the absolute unknown of the future, moment by moment, breath by breath. Discovering new territory within mySelf- allowing self evolution to continue.
I know with the blank map I will still stumble on familiar ground from long ago but as I keep moving it will not need to be re-experienced, simply let go of. As I keep moving through the known I will find areas never discovered within mySelf and I will experience mySelf differently. This may change my direction but nonetheless it will be in these moments that I will be propelled forward leaping over the mountain and instead of climbing it with rigor and discipline, I will leap over it with ease and acceleration.
It is my map and my journey so I know the steps I choose to take are of my choosing. The force within my body cues the steps and allows the intellect to choose left, right or straight ahead. It is only when I listen to voices outside mySelf that I get lead off course. Becoming true to mySelf is what I now experience as the Authentic journey that allows more of the the expanding presence of Godforce to be present and available to me every moment!

It truly is a joy to be Alive and Engaging as and with the Godforce and knowing this has the power to change the WORLD!
Standing alone, together, will be the collective force to design a world of our choosing...Are you willing to do what it takes to stand alone and connect to the most powerful force in the world?- YOU! Allow yourself to ponder this and allow this sensation to lead you to the big questions in your own life! It continues to do so for me!!

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Your voice has changed, and I recognize the aspect of my consciousness that you are. Your words resonate within the depths of my bones and I am so proud to stand alone with you beside me!

Thank you my friend!