Hello All,
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With Respect, Integrity and Generosity of Spirit,
Naomi
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Welcome 2010
As I move into 2010, I am aware more then ever that this is my journey. As I allow myself to claim the aspects of me that I was not ready to claim in 2009, I know I move forward with more ease in my body to simply be me.
I stand in a very different place knowing how far away from myself I had to go in order to discover I was lost in my own life. My body had been giving me messages all along I just didn't know how to pay attention differently.
I have a wonderful family, job, friends and yet a year and a half ago I realized something was missing. I now know all that was missing was Me showing up and being willing to step out from behind the roles I became very adept in occupying and breathing into the moment and what was moving through me.
I am mindful that in a few weeks my blog will morph into my website and the title I have had for a year and a half will change from creating Time and Space to Naomi Irons.com. The metaphor for me becomes; I am no longer willing to hide behind my roles, behind a name or behind a business because the work I do is simply an extension of who I am becoming. Nothing to strive for, nothing to create other then what holds meaning for me in this moment.
I stand in a place of knowing yet I still have to remember, or sometimes be reminded to take a step back to see the expansiveness of my own journey. In the expansiveness I can remember I Am the creator of my own life. Then dare to ask myself the question- Do I like what I am creating?
Never before have I held more passion for the potential the human body holds as a brilliant Quantum Device. Spending more then 13 years in alternative health care has become the invitation for me to consider the human body differently then what I had been taught years ago. As a result my fields of Massage, Yoga, Meditation and Doula have shifted significantly and I experience myself more fully alive while engaging then ever before.
As a parent to two beautifully unique individuals I now have a deeper understanding and urgency to share something different to consider as I look around me and see children who's bodies and minds are screaming and as a result are being labeled with what is 'wrong' with them. I had never considered until recently that perhaps these children are screaming at us to become the unique individual we once were in order for them to maintain their expression in the world. I don't have to look any further then my own home to see the more I am wiling to tell myself the truth as I look within, the more my children can stay internally referenced and be their own guiding force in the world.
Recently I had somebody ask me if the way I choose to see my world was right and there way wrong. I used the following analogy to express myself. I asked the other person to look at an object I was looking at and I asked them to share their experience of the object, describing what it looked like, their feelings about it and what it represented to them. After they shared their experience I shared mine. Based on how differently we had been taught to view our world through the eyes of our early family/community/school experiences, we each had very different truths to our own experience. What I then shared is neither of us were wrong, neither of us were right. It simply became the truth of our own experience in the moment. As the old saying goes "And the truth shall set you free". My rendition of this would be "And My truth will set me free".
I came to a place within myself a year and a half ago where I began to question- is the way I have been taught to see my body, my Self, my intellect (my world) working for me? I had everything outside of me that society would would deem as a great life, yet inside I was in turmoil. The stronger I pushed it down the stronger the message became, "WAKE UP" and seek others who are hungry for a different way to consider their world.
Here I am- The invitation to seek something different then the cultural coma we have subjected ourselves to for so long knowing it wasn't working, yet not knowing a different place to stand. I Am the call to those who know their own potential lies in the truth of their own experience and not in somebody else's technique, strategy or journey.
What you can count on from me is NOT the answer. NOT another technique. NOT another rule book. Simply my truth looking and seeking out your truth so you can know you have the potential to choose differently. What you choose is completely up to you. After all, it is your life!
Look for many more articles to come from various authors on my site as the community of people choosing self over the cultural dogma grows.
With respect for all that is and will be,
Naomi
I stand in a very different place knowing how far away from myself I had to go in order to discover I was lost in my own life. My body had been giving me messages all along I just didn't know how to pay attention differently.
I have a wonderful family, job, friends and yet a year and a half ago I realized something was missing. I now know all that was missing was Me showing up and being willing to step out from behind the roles I became very adept in occupying and breathing into the moment and what was moving through me.
I am mindful that in a few weeks my blog will morph into my website and the title I have had for a year and a half will change from creating Time and Space to Naomi Irons.com. The metaphor for me becomes; I am no longer willing to hide behind my roles, behind a name or behind a business because the work I do is simply an extension of who I am becoming. Nothing to strive for, nothing to create other then what holds meaning for me in this moment.
I stand in a place of knowing yet I still have to remember, or sometimes be reminded to take a step back to see the expansiveness of my own journey. In the expansiveness I can remember I Am the creator of my own life. Then dare to ask myself the question- Do I like what I am creating?
Never before have I held more passion for the potential the human body holds as a brilliant Quantum Device. Spending more then 13 years in alternative health care has become the invitation for me to consider the human body differently then what I had been taught years ago. As a result my fields of Massage, Yoga, Meditation and Doula have shifted significantly and I experience myself more fully alive while engaging then ever before.
As a parent to two beautifully unique individuals I now have a deeper understanding and urgency to share something different to consider as I look around me and see children who's bodies and minds are screaming and as a result are being labeled with what is 'wrong' with them. I had never considered until recently that perhaps these children are screaming at us to become the unique individual we once were in order for them to maintain their expression in the world. I don't have to look any further then my own home to see the more I am wiling to tell myself the truth as I look within, the more my children can stay internally referenced and be their own guiding force in the world.
Recently I had somebody ask me if the way I choose to see my world was right and there way wrong. I used the following analogy to express myself. I asked the other person to look at an object I was looking at and I asked them to share their experience of the object, describing what it looked like, their feelings about it and what it represented to them. After they shared their experience I shared mine. Based on how differently we had been taught to view our world through the eyes of our early family/community/school experiences, we each had very different truths to our own experience. What I then shared is neither of us were wrong, neither of us were right. It simply became the truth of our own experience in the moment. As the old saying goes "And the truth shall set you free". My rendition of this would be "And My truth will set me free".
I came to a place within myself a year and a half ago where I began to question- is the way I have been taught to see my body, my Self, my intellect (my world) working for me? I had everything outside of me that society would would deem as a great life, yet inside I was in turmoil. The stronger I pushed it down the stronger the message became, "WAKE UP" and seek others who are hungry for a different way to consider their world.
Here I am- The invitation to seek something different then the cultural coma we have subjected ourselves to for so long knowing it wasn't working, yet not knowing a different place to stand. I Am the call to those who know their own potential lies in the truth of their own experience and not in somebody else's technique, strategy or journey.
What you can count on from me is NOT the answer. NOT another technique. NOT another rule book. Simply my truth looking and seeking out your truth so you can know you have the potential to choose differently. What you choose is completely up to you. After all, it is your life!
Look for many more articles to come from various authors on my site as the community of people choosing self over the cultural dogma grows.
With respect for all that is and will be,
Naomi
Sunday, November 29, 2009
My Truth
Do you trust me? Do I trust you? Am I telling you the truth? Are you telling me the truth?
In an externally referenced world these were questions I frequently asked myself.It became very easy to make it about somebody else and create a 'story' based on my own belief system.
As I move towards an internally referenced world I begin to question inside myself. I now know this is the only place that holds the more important questions-do I trust myself? Am I telling myself the truth?
I know my world is my creation so as I look outside of myself to see what I am creating I am aware that I know things inside where I live. To honor this knowing I must first admit this truth to myself then open my mouth to put voice to it...no matter what. If I do not speak the truth of my experience I have to lock it back down and create another event to bring it back to the surface. It becomes a choice point again- Do I choose to tell myself the truth and honor this truth by making choices that reflect my inner knowing OR do I look away from my own truth to make somebody else feel comfortable and once again dishonor myself!
When I choose not to tell the truth to someone in my life I know it is a metaphor for my internal world. I know I am avoiding honoring the truth of my experience and locking down information that wants to be in flow so I may come to know myself better.
What is the genius for me? Where am I choosing to look away from more of my own truth because knowing it will force a choice point- do I honor or dishonor myself as I put voice to my own truth. Years of pleasing others and locking down the truth of my experience has built up incredible pressure- THIS INFORMATION WANTS TO MOVE!
Do I need to keep creating experiences outside myself that force this information to move or do I simply know what I know, tell myself the truth and open my mouth to declare this truth as mine. I know doing this will shake the remnants of an old foundation that is long overdue for collapse and integration. My body is a powerful processor and once this information is integrated I know more and as a result become MORE!
In an externally referenced world these were questions I frequently asked myself.It became very easy to make it about somebody else and create a 'story' based on my own belief system.
As I move towards an internally referenced world I begin to question inside myself. I now know this is the only place that holds the more important questions-do I trust myself? Am I telling myself the truth?
I know my world is my creation so as I look outside of myself to see what I am creating I am aware that I know things inside where I live. To honor this knowing I must first admit this truth to myself then open my mouth to put voice to it...no matter what. If I do not speak the truth of my experience I have to lock it back down and create another event to bring it back to the surface. It becomes a choice point again- Do I choose to tell myself the truth and honor this truth by making choices that reflect my inner knowing OR do I look away from my own truth to make somebody else feel comfortable and once again dishonor myself!
When I choose not to tell the truth to someone in my life I know it is a metaphor for my internal world. I know I am avoiding honoring the truth of my experience and locking down information that wants to be in flow so I may come to know myself better.
What is the genius for me? Where am I choosing to look away from more of my own truth because knowing it will force a choice point- do I honor or dishonor myself as I put voice to my own truth. Years of pleasing others and locking down the truth of my experience has built up incredible pressure- THIS INFORMATION WANTS TO MOVE!
Do I need to keep creating experiences outside myself that force this information to move or do I simply know what I know, tell myself the truth and open my mouth to declare this truth as mine. I know doing this will shake the remnants of an old foundation that is long overdue for collapse and integration. My body is a powerful processor and once this information is integrated I know more and as a result become MORE!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Being willing to see ALL of myself
Yesterday I experienced LOTS of agitation in my body. Today I am allowing myself to get curious.
What are the things I choose to embrace within myself and what are the things that I am choosing NOT to see? Why am I choosing NOT to see the magnificence of my imperfections? Is my vulnerability any different then my strength?
As I choose to show up in the moment living the truth of my experience I need to honor and embrace it all in order to be true to myself- to see who I Am becoming.
Do I ever really know who I am becoming? As I show up in the moment and allow my truth to move and integrate I Am different breath to breath.As I remember to trust that I Am the wave transforming I can relax into the moment without labeling the experience. It is all perfect. It is all exactly what it is meant to be.
As I sit here right now all I can know is what is going on inside my own body.Am I willing to embrace it ALL as Me? Am I willing to know in the moment I can choose to hide the truth or embrace it for myself- nobody else, just me. Can I allow myself to be profoundly touched by my own discoveries and marvel in who I Am becoming OR do I choose to look outside myself to see if my success is defined by touching someone else. In the moment that truth moves and I embrace it, I am MORE.
This space is where my own evolution can become seen by Me. All the things I have been choosing not to see are aspects of me that when I was externally referenced, I saw them as negative, based on others reactions.
In an internally referenced world all I have is the truth of my experience in the moment bumping up against aspects of myself I buried a long time ago. My agitation towards another is ALL about ME! Can I relax into this as I do when I have a moment of pure joy. When I do, I take a breath, allow it to move and experience the next truth.
What are the things I choose to embrace within myself and what are the things that I am choosing NOT to see? Why am I choosing NOT to see the magnificence of my imperfections? Is my vulnerability any different then my strength?
As I choose to show up in the moment living the truth of my experience I need to honor and embrace it all in order to be true to myself- to see who I Am becoming.
Do I ever really know who I am becoming? As I show up in the moment and allow my truth to move and integrate I Am different breath to breath.As I remember to trust that I Am the wave transforming I can relax into the moment without labeling the experience. It is all perfect. It is all exactly what it is meant to be.
As I sit here right now all I can know is what is going on inside my own body.Am I willing to embrace it ALL as Me? Am I willing to know in the moment I can choose to hide the truth or embrace it for myself- nobody else, just me. Can I allow myself to be profoundly touched by my own discoveries and marvel in who I Am becoming OR do I choose to look outside myself to see if my success is defined by touching someone else. In the moment that truth moves and I embrace it, I am MORE.
This space is where my own evolution can become seen by Me. All the things I have been choosing not to see are aspects of me that when I was externally referenced, I saw them as negative, based on others reactions.
In an internally referenced world all I have is the truth of my experience in the moment bumping up against aspects of myself I buried a long time ago. My agitation towards another is ALL about ME! Can I relax into this as I do when I have a moment of pure joy. When I do, I take a breath, allow it to move and experience the next truth.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
The Dance
The dance of my intellect and body has changed over the past year. My body has taken the lead. The dance of my life has gotten faster and more free flowing. There are still moments when I don't trust the next dance moves and I allow my intellect to take the lead again. What I notice now is as soon as this happens the dance slows and I am mindful of the steps instead of the flow.
Yesterday I had the experience of becoming MORE and with that came a HUGE insight. As the impulse moved through my body I noticed the sensations that came with it and it began to move old information in my body. The next thing I knew I had slowed the dance and was very aware of the steps. INTELLECT ALERT! Instead of staying with the sensations and relaxing into them I allowed my intellect to kick into high gear and considerably slowed down the entire process of transformation. I was exhausted and began to create questions at an environment,behavior,capability level. Where will I go? When will I do this? How will it happen? Why do I need to do this?
Today I am able to see clearer and move back into my body and allow myself to ponder who am I becoming and who else can I become as a result. The beauty of this question is there are no answers. I simply know by staying in my body and allowing these questions to rumble through me the old information that has been passed from generation to generation to 'me' can move and as long as I relax into it and know when my body processes it I will stand in a new place. A place of knowing and seeing the MORE that I have become. This is the cycle of my life when I allow my body to lead.
The genius for me in believing "creating is about the end result" has allowed me to think the end result represents safety and familiarity. It has also allowed me to move around situations so I could continue believing the illusion that things are safe when they stay the same.
Evolution is growth. To survive we must grow. I now need to look at my life and ask myself is the very illusion of holding on, the very thing that is creating the illusion of safety in my world. Am I growing in an Authentic direction or has the genius of safety created a very different path that I am choosing to move down?
I am realizing in this moment, all the things outside of me that I have chosen to define me are the things, that when the impulse moves in my body, are creating a deeper awareness within. It is an illusion that my building and business represent safety. My safety comes from within and to grow I must become more and as a result things are going to change! This is NOT how I was taught to live! But the more time I hang out in my body connected to the signal from self I realize growth and change are EVOLUTION for its own sake!
I have a deeper awareness for myself today that NOTHING, even what I have created, represents safety, stability or success. In this moment the only thing that represents success, stability or safety for me is- Am I breathing? Am I making an Authentic choice (one based on who I am becoming not one out of cultural habituation)? Am I staying with and relaxing into the sensations that move in my body? Or, am I bracing against what wants to move deep within me?
Stay tuned for what happens as I allow the latest insight to move info that has been allowing me to live small and make choices based on this perspective!
I Am becoming MORE as I write each word and allow what I didn't know I didn't know to flow through the tissue in my body transforming generations of beliefs! I know in this moment my children have a new choice available to them that they did not have 5 minutes ago. All becomes possible when we share with ourselves, the truth of our own experience. Possibilities become awakened in others as we share the truth of our own experience with others.
As you take a breath right now consider who you are capable of becoming if safety resides in your body in the the next breath and the next choice...not in anything we have been taught to believe it resides in.
Yesterday I had the experience of becoming MORE and with that came a HUGE insight. As the impulse moved through my body I noticed the sensations that came with it and it began to move old information in my body. The next thing I knew I had slowed the dance and was very aware of the steps. INTELLECT ALERT! Instead of staying with the sensations and relaxing into them I allowed my intellect to kick into high gear and considerably slowed down the entire process of transformation. I was exhausted and began to create questions at an environment,behavior,capability level. Where will I go? When will I do this? How will it happen? Why do I need to do this?
Today I am able to see clearer and move back into my body and allow myself to ponder who am I becoming and who else can I become as a result. The beauty of this question is there are no answers. I simply know by staying in my body and allowing these questions to rumble through me the old information that has been passed from generation to generation to 'me' can move and as long as I relax into it and know when my body processes it I will stand in a new place. A place of knowing and seeing the MORE that I have become. This is the cycle of my life when I allow my body to lead.
The genius for me in believing "creating is about the end result" has allowed me to think the end result represents safety and familiarity. It has also allowed me to move around situations so I could continue believing the illusion that things are safe when they stay the same.
Evolution is growth. To survive we must grow. I now need to look at my life and ask myself is the very illusion of holding on, the very thing that is creating the illusion of safety in my world. Am I growing in an Authentic direction or has the genius of safety created a very different path that I am choosing to move down?
I am realizing in this moment, all the things outside of me that I have chosen to define me are the things, that when the impulse moves in my body, are creating a deeper awareness within. It is an illusion that my building and business represent safety. My safety comes from within and to grow I must become more and as a result things are going to change! This is NOT how I was taught to live! But the more time I hang out in my body connected to the signal from self I realize growth and change are EVOLUTION for its own sake!
I have a deeper awareness for myself today that NOTHING, even what I have created, represents safety, stability or success. In this moment the only thing that represents success, stability or safety for me is- Am I breathing? Am I making an Authentic choice (one based on who I am becoming not one out of cultural habituation)? Am I staying with and relaxing into the sensations that move in my body? Or, am I bracing against what wants to move deep within me?
Stay tuned for what happens as I allow the latest insight to move info that has been allowing me to live small and make choices based on this perspective!
I Am becoming MORE as I write each word and allow what I didn't know I didn't know to flow through the tissue in my body transforming generations of beliefs! I know in this moment my children have a new choice available to them that they did not have 5 minutes ago. All becomes possible when we share with ourselves, the truth of our own experience. Possibilities become awakened in others as we share the truth of our own experience with others.
As you take a breath right now consider who you are capable of becoming if safety resides in your body in the the next breath and the next choice...not in anything we have been taught to believe it resides in.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Discovering MORE of what has defined my Life and Letting it Go
I read every word of 3 powerful emails that Koreen, Amy and Marie wrote as they honestly claimed the truth of their experience. As I read, I felt info move throughout my whole body- I felt inspired. I feel So grateful in this moment for all of you and especially for mySelf as I keep showing up in my own life one moment at a time, reveling in ALL of it.
So much is coming into my awareness right now. As I read your words Koreen what popped for me was the conversation I want to have with women about how we are unable to show up in our own lives when we make our lives about showing up for another person. More specifically for me, when I showed up 'for' my kids/work they become the very distraction from what moved deep within ME!
We keep perpetuating this cycle and wonder why we have so much guilt as mothers/business owners when we finally want to do something for ourselves. It shakes our foundation to the core when we have spent a lifetime making our life about somebody/something else.
This is what is flowing for me right now because this week I was able to see how much my business has defined my self worth for SO long! When I wasn't living my life for my kids, I was living it to fix others and have them perceive me as great, successful, competent etc.
Well this week I finally SHOWED UP! I held info sessions for all my clients who chose to take part and moved through the experience of being completely Decloaked in front of those who have seen me as someone else for the past 12 years! On Tues I had a lot of info moving through me even as I sat in front of my first small group of women. I allowed myself to be open, clear, honest and direct with all of them and realized I was finally ready to SHOW UP completely in my own life!
My life has been a whirlwind ever since! I have been creating SO many more people on my holodeck who are willing to show up in their own life because I have become willing to show up for mine. I am no longer willing to live my life for anybody else and after allowing myself to move through it and claim it, I know there is NOTHING I can't move through because it is ALL allowing me to discover more of my potential.
Someone asked me the other day if I felt responsible for what happens to people after their Experiences with me. I was again able to see MY EXPERIENCE IS ALL ABOUT ME AND THEIR EXPERIENCE IS ALL ABOUT THEM! It is SOOO FREEING for both of us because in that second that we both show up we realize we are the creators of our own reality- nobody else!! The truth of my experience has become the portal for others to begin to get curious about what potential lies within their truth- expressed to themselves!
In one week my schedule will no longer be about accommodating anybody else. It will be mine to claim and to allow what is right for me moment to moment. I will be able to determine- do I want to do Massage today, do I want to create/facilitate a program, do I want to be at home, do I want to go for tea with friends, do I want to write, teach a yoga class or take a yoga class? I have never ALLOWED my self worth to be completely created from inside me- until NOW!
The beauty of my experience is I now get to be the invitation for something to awaken in another as I claim this experience for myself! The only difference now is that my self worth comes from inside and if I exhale I allow it to radiate out for other lives to be touched! The experience I now have in my body is- it is more painful to remain a bud then to blossom into a beautiful flower.
I am looking to create many VERY different conversations with myself and looking to expand on them with others willing to discover more about the truth of their own experience. No work, just excitement in the discovery!!!
Life becomes static when controlled by dogma, rules, boundaries and expectations of others...Life becomes MORE when we discover the more that we are moment to moment .
The time for me is NOW... When I was finally able to acknowledge that I was the only one in my own life to decide when and how I reclaimed my life, EVERYTHING changed and continues to!
Ask yourself what and who are you waiting for to live fully and vibrantly everyday? If this creates agitation,fear, excitement etc within your body take a deep breath and relax into the sensation because you have just taken the first step on your journey to your Authentic self.
So much is coming into my awareness right now. As I read your words Koreen what popped for me was the conversation I want to have with women about how we are unable to show up in our own lives when we make our lives about showing up for another person. More specifically for me, when I showed up 'for' my kids/work they become the very distraction from what moved deep within ME!
We keep perpetuating this cycle and wonder why we have so much guilt as mothers/business owners when we finally want to do something for ourselves. It shakes our foundation to the core when we have spent a lifetime making our life about somebody/something else.
This is what is flowing for me right now because this week I was able to see how much my business has defined my self worth for SO long! When I wasn't living my life for my kids, I was living it to fix others and have them perceive me as great, successful, competent etc.
Well this week I finally SHOWED UP! I held info sessions for all my clients who chose to take part and moved through the experience of being completely Decloaked in front of those who have seen me as someone else for the past 12 years! On Tues I had a lot of info moving through me even as I sat in front of my first small group of women. I allowed myself to be open, clear, honest and direct with all of them and realized I was finally ready to SHOW UP completely in my own life!
My life has been a whirlwind ever since! I have been creating SO many more people on my holodeck who are willing to show up in their own life because I have become willing to show up for mine. I am no longer willing to live my life for anybody else and after allowing myself to move through it and claim it, I know there is NOTHING I can't move through because it is ALL allowing me to discover more of my potential.
Someone asked me the other day if I felt responsible for what happens to people after their Experiences with me. I was again able to see MY EXPERIENCE IS ALL ABOUT ME AND THEIR EXPERIENCE IS ALL ABOUT THEM! It is SOOO FREEING for both of us because in that second that we both show up we realize we are the creators of our own reality- nobody else!! The truth of my experience has become the portal for others to begin to get curious about what potential lies within their truth- expressed to themselves!
In one week my schedule will no longer be about accommodating anybody else. It will be mine to claim and to allow what is right for me moment to moment. I will be able to determine- do I want to do Massage today, do I want to create/facilitate a program, do I want to be at home, do I want to go for tea with friends, do I want to write, teach a yoga class or take a yoga class? I have never ALLOWED my self worth to be completely created from inside me- until NOW!
The beauty of my experience is I now get to be the invitation for something to awaken in another as I claim this experience for myself! The only difference now is that my self worth comes from inside and if I exhale I allow it to radiate out for other lives to be touched! The experience I now have in my body is- it is more painful to remain a bud then to blossom into a beautiful flower.
I am looking to create many VERY different conversations with myself and looking to expand on them with others willing to discover more about the truth of their own experience. No work, just excitement in the discovery!!!
Life becomes static when controlled by dogma, rules, boundaries and expectations of others...Life becomes MORE when we discover the more that we are moment to moment .
The time for me is NOW... When I was finally able to acknowledge that I was the only one in my own life to decide when and how I reclaimed my life, EVERYTHING changed and continues to!
Ask yourself what and who are you waiting for to live fully and vibrantly everyday? If this creates agitation,fear, excitement etc within your body take a deep breath and relax into the sensation because you have just taken the first step on your journey to your Authentic self.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Embracing the Genius
Ahhhh....I feel as though I am in the stillpoint of my life today. It is a rainy morning and I am cuddled up with my tea and a blanket. I am pausing this week. I am engaging myself and creating the space to allow my body and intellect to catch up to the acceleration in who I have become.
I just
I got together with an AMAZING group of women and spent a FABULOUS weekend engaged in conversation, laughter and tears. I haven't seen most of the women in over a year and yet I was able to share who I Am in this moment with each of them. It really felt as though space and time collapsed and the Essence that each one of us carries was able to shine through in the moment without the stories from the past filling the space. It was a beautiful experience.
I have a lot of information in my awareness today. If I were to remove every person from my world and sit in the sensations that were triggered in my body over the weekend I have a feeling I will know myself better by the end of this blog.
If nobody exists within me and if I am not the fixer of others and their lives, who do I need to be 'strong' for and why do I feel as though I don't have the strength to go through experiences? What does strength mean to me? Do I need strength to protect the illusion that I am safe in my world?
If I Am the one in my world and I get to show up every moment of my life, I need nothing more then to know then I am safe to inhale my potential of discovering the more that I Am, make a choice honoring the discovery, exhaling and letting the past experiences move to create space for the new evolution. In this process the step towards my Authentic journey has begun. Each breath becomes the step. Nothing to be strong for, nothing to protect. Surrendering my intellect to my body, relaxing into the sensations without putting labels on them. They are what they are. I will be less likely to honor myself if I put labels (guilt, hurt, pain, anxiety etc) on what information needs to move in my body in order to create the new thoughts that come with insights when info (emotions and sensations) moves in my body.
If I create my world then I am the only one in my world. If I am the only one in my world I need nothing other then what lives inside of me in this moment. I will not create this moment to be anything other then what 'I' need to move THROUGH (not around) to get closer to the core of who I Am. I am realizing I knew all this at the different layers that have already peeled away but I am experiencing myself VERY differently the last few days so I know have a new understanding of what I already knew.
As I am able to see myself differently I am seeing others in my life differently.
I read something this morning that allowed me to see why honoring myself in the moment is SO important to me now...
"When I forsake my genius and speak to you as though I were another, I also speak to you as someone you are not and somewhere you are not. I address you as audience, and do not expect you to respond as the genius you are." - Finite and Infinite Games
I am genius and you are genius. If we can stay present to that in conversation we will both discover the more that we are in each others presence. I have lived both the genius and 'not that' and my life has accelerated exponentially since embracing myself as genius!I look forward to discovering the more that I Am now in each breath.
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I got together with an AMAZING group of women and spent a FABULOUS weekend engaged in conversation, laughter and tears. I haven't seen most of the women in over a year and yet I was able to share who I Am in this moment with each of them. It really felt as though space and time collapsed and the Essence that each one of us carries was able to shine through in the moment without the stories from the past filling the space. It was a beautiful experience.
I have a lot of information in my awareness today. If I were to remove every person from my world and sit in the sensations that were triggered in my body over the weekend I have a feeling I will know myself better by the end of this blog.
If nobody exists within me and if I am not the fixer of others and their lives, who do I need to be 'strong' for and why do I feel as though I don't have the strength to go through experiences? What does strength mean to me? Do I need strength to protect the illusion that I am safe in my world?
If I Am the one in my world and I get to show up every moment of my life, I need nothing more then to know then I am safe to inhale my potential of discovering the more that I Am, make a choice honoring the discovery, exhaling and letting the past experiences move to create space for the new evolution. In this process the step towards my Authentic journey has begun. Each breath becomes the step. Nothing to be strong for, nothing to protect. Surrendering my intellect to my body, relaxing into the sensations without putting labels on them. They are what they are. I will be less likely to honor myself if I put labels (guilt, hurt, pain, anxiety etc) on what information needs to move in my body in order to create the new thoughts that come with insights when info (emotions and sensations) moves in my body.
If I create my world then I am the only one in my world. If I am the only one in my world I need nothing other then what lives inside of me in this moment. I will not create this moment to be anything other then what 'I' need to move THROUGH (not around) to get closer to the core of who I Am. I am realizing I knew all this at the different layers that have already peeled away but I am experiencing myself VERY differently the last few days so I know have a new understanding of what I already knew.
As I am able to see myself differently I am seeing others in my life differently.
I read something this morning that allowed me to see why honoring myself in the moment is SO important to me now...
"When I forsake my genius and speak to you as though I were another, I also speak to you as someone you are not and somewhere you are not. I address you as audience, and do not expect you to respond as the genius you are." - Finite and Infinite Games
I am genius and you are genius. If we can stay present to that in conversation we will both discover the more that we are in each others presence. I have lived both the genius and 'not that' and my life has accelerated exponentially since embracing myself as genius!I look forward to discovering the more that I Am now in each breath.
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